i cant think
January 13, 2007
I CANT THINK..
yes. i cant think and i dont want to think anymore. i've had enough of thinking of so much. i thought i didnt need the 1 week break anymore. but, now i realised, i need that 1 week off.
the devils behind those masks. i never knew it was that bad. i never knew i was a bitch in their eyes. oh my. i thought 07' will be a great year. unfortunately, it might not be as nice as i want it to be. i feel
accused. and that's why in the first place i want to quit. i knew all this would happen. its just a matter of time. and i thought things turn out better, so i decided to continue working. who knows? the worse is yet to come. they are all so fake. im so tired. how many times have i cried ever since i stepped into this hell place ? seriously, no one understands how i feel. no one can. so dont judge me by just looking at me and listening to others. every night i crawl into bed, those words will come haunting me. i cant help not thinking about this. -
am i such a fucking bad person ? what i did could be a mistake. and might make things even worse. but, im really tired. i really had enough. someone bring me to a far away place with only peace and love. i need to run away from this place. i cant survive in this place full of lies.
stop thinking, serene.
