first love
September 05, 2006
people say first love can never be forgotten cos its the most memorable one. perhaps what they said is true.
this is nothing. really nothing. i just heard people said that so often. on tv , in books and everywhere.
its so difficult to face up to your own feelings. people hate to make mistakes. and they are afraid to make mistakes too. im one of them. i mean who likes to face rejection ? who likes to reject others. its not a nice feeling. i cant describe my feelings right now. being alone at home makes me think a lot. i suddenly have so much 感触 ( i cant rmb what's this in english ) . how many friends have i lose ? if only so many things did not happen in the first place. every steps we took are so important. a wrong move and you will regret for your whole life. its such a pity that i lose nice friends just like that. even if things were made clear, be it breakups or friendship quarrels, there will always be an invisble wall there. wounds may heal but scars will remain. how many tears have i shed since i were born ? its not easy to face up to one's feelings. i always find those who can do it really impressive. cos i cant. i chose to run away from it. i chose not to face it. mostly because im afraid. i just cant get over the barrier. but is like if you already knew what the consequences will be, why still go forward ? perhaps people want to try their luck, in hope that the result will be different.
why are people so different on msn, in sms ? anyway, i realised i sound like i just got rejected or facing some relationship problems. haha. nah. im not facing any teenage crisis. i just missed the past so much. if time machine really exist , would life turned perfect ? it would be too perfect then that people wont learn from their mistakes.
go listen 爱失控 by energy. (:
