August 19, 2006
a wall to cover my true feelings. life has been so so . france's fireworks is the most amazing fireworks i ever seen. and im glad i seen it even though i quarelled with a really lame guy that day. surprisingly, there was blocks here and there that day. we were early but of course there's even more people who are earlier then us. people squeeze here and there. and that lame guy just had to squeeze into me. i had been really kind to everyone who bumped into me or squeezed into me. but he was too overboard. i was standing there trying to get out of the crowd. and he kept squeezing into me. and i mean really pushing me. and so i said kindly " can you stop pushing ? ". and he said, " am i pushing you ?! " ( sarcastically )
did i say i love jiazhi so much ? she helped me scold him. cos i was dumbfounded. we didnt care the crowd that was looking at us. i was so mad at him. he pushed me so hard and he said he didnt.
suay... i shoud have scolded him molester.
anyway, i guess i screwed up my eng's oral. i was out of point. the invigilator spoke so soft. i had to strain my ear and try to figure out what she was asking. it was easy. but i just had to screw it up. and they kept interrupting me. bless me bless me bless me please.
i had a bad dream yesterday night.
i said everything i wanted to tell you. its up to you how you interpret it. no point deceiving yourself. yes. perhaps you need time. but, what you are doing are not helping yourself.a break, a true smile is all i need.
