February 10, 2006
i'm feeling so emotional.
no.. i'm not. i shouldn't be. it must be the song that i'm listening now..o levels results release today. happy for people and sad at the same time. people who i expected to do well, did not do that well and people i did not expected, did surprisingly well. suddenly, i feel like dropping to combine science. i don't know. just don't think that i could do well. i'm feeling the exam stress now. more of o levels stress. :(
sad songs really make me cry. i told myself to stop. but, my thoughts just wonder. over to those messages, those images in my mind. valentine is coming. i could just imagine what happen. guys really shouldn't make promises that they couldn't do it. it would just be so unfair to the girls. they broke their promise and can just ran away from it.
those shittified bastards....went back to school today for guides. agnes mdm and elaine mdm came. played 'checkers' game. nothing really BIG happened. just like any normal meeting i guess. they talked to me. about some stuffs. about people trying to overrule me. or whatever you described it. but, i'm truly tired of leading. i'm glad of it actually. i would really prefer people to lead, and i would just tell them the instructions, and they do the thing. i don't like big famous stuffs. i dislike being the centre of attraction. i think i'm going to stop saying i never wanted to be the CL. since i am now, i just have to accept it. and moreover, i'm passing out soon. so, make the best out of it and passed out with great memories. (:
i think huiwen am kinda under a lot of stress. so here i am writing a personal message to you. (:
cheer up girl. it doesn't matter if you did not do well. its all in your heart and mind. as long as you did your very best. different people ahve different brains. you just happened to be the unlucky one. but... you could make the best out of it too. so cheer up ! you can do it and i trust you. stop looking down on yourself and giving yourself so much unneccessary stress. it would just make things worse. just remember i will here for you hur? (:
anyway, my left arm got sprained and it hurts hella lots.
if you have the feelings, please admit. i'm truly tired of waiting..
