SERENE'S,

August 13, 2005

it's 6.24pm now. from the look at the time, it's obvious that i did not went shopping. was supposed to go with my friends, but somehow, time and distance are reconsidered. they went jurong point. and met arnd 3 plus. the reason for the venue? jiahui wants to buy eeyore. so in the end, after i bathe and changed, i told them i'm not going and spent the whole afternoon SLEEPING and nothing else. how pig can i be ? and i MISSED my LUNCH ! dad came home and say he's bringing us out to dinner. till now.. he's still sleeping. and my mum ? sleeping on my brother's bed. i guess our family has this sleeping genes or something.

but i guess no shopping for me today was good. i could save money and at the same time, catch some sleep. oh .. i saw one average guy today. (( : see ? i'm desperate. not desperate for guys but desperate to get a guy to replace him. i do hope he asked for my no. i know i'm acting like a bitch. but i can't bear with the pain anymore. i need to focus on something else. i'm not sure this feeling is strong or real . but one thing i know is, i'm sad over him. how dumb can i be ?

10 11 things which i don't like about him :
1) he's not handsome.
2) he likes her.
3) the way he speaks is really weird. [ seems nervous ]
4) he's not extrovert enough.
5) his dressing sense are HORRIBLE. ( not exactly horrible. but i just dislike )
6) if i was to be attached to him, life would be boring.
7) he has no sense of fun and excitement.
8) character totally different from me.
9) no sense of humour at all
10) thinks he knows himself really well
11) trying to act as someone he is not in sms and msn.

i have SS test on monday. chem test on tues. adam khoo course on wed, thurs and fri. the next week is really packed. there's firework tomorrow. i'm still thinking whether i want to go. i have a dinner with my parents tomorrow too. nice yummy food or spectacular fireworks ?

anyway, i FLUNK my physics. i'm not exactly surprised. but i ain't depressed over it. pathetic 3e1 only have 9 girls who passed physics. (( x but i'm happy for my english and chinese. i actually did not get a B4 for my chinese . instead an A2. i'm satisfied. (( : blessed my maths and geo. have to go. my stomach is grumbling asking for food.

the state of my heart
the place where we are
was written in the stars.