isn't this nice ? i miss hong kong. i miss those food. i miss those leng zais . i miss those days. i'm so troubled. somebody, please help me. my brain cells are pushing under my skin. they can't wait to burst out.
frankly speaking, i do feel happy for myself . but i feel so stressed out. too fierce they don't like. not fierce mdms don't like. what am i suppose to do ? kill myself ? i think it would be a wonderful idea. i'm dreading guides . everyone wanted weihwan to be. and from out of the blue, i become this CL thingy. i'm 100% sure someone dislike me for having this position. if only i'm just the ACL or maybe PL , if i'm those , i'm sure i won't be so troubled now. somebody please sort things out for me. i know myself the best. i can't do it . i don't have this capability. i don't have the qualities. yiwen was right. even you can be the CL . i think everyone can be . )) :
Mrs. Ho just realize i cut my hair. it has been such a long time. and she says it looks like chicken backside. sarcastic ? insulting ? i don't know. and i can't be bothered with it. had guides after school. it's fun when you can command the squad and stuff. but it feels REALLY weird. my brain is bursting soon. i desperately need someone to help me.
if someday i died , will anyone cry for me ? will anyone mourn for me ? will YOU be sad ?
- trouble .
