July 16, 2005
i'm having so much of a mood swings. i have exactly no idea what's going inside me. was suppose to be going to the airport today to send elaine mdm off. but it ended off abruptly. we didn't make it . somemore elaine mdm called to tell us not to come. agnes mdm threaten us and xiuhui mdm was really FIERCE. oh well.. but still, no matter what, i just realize those mdms they aren't as fierce as i thought of except her. (( : i will miss elaine mdm. she's great.
im surprised i actually said that.anyway, we were stuck at city hall station. and my mood swings start all over again. so, i kept my mouth shut and went home. the rest went bugis. i've tried hard to control my emotions. but i guess i failed badly. i regret saying my family background that day. i truly regretted it. it reminds me of my past. and now, i have to 'recollect' myself.
sorry guys, if i have been really moody. = i hate the recent me. it's not myself. i hate to have mood swings but i just don't know why i'm having it so often nowsaday. this simply sucks.
friday, poh yee treated me and hwan n jiat to a thai restaurant. that day, i told them my family background . it still haunts me after so many years........ i hate him. he spoilt my family, my happiness.
sounds dramatic ? but it truly happened to me.
