September 18, 2004
been a long time since i update. tis few days me preparing fer me final yr. i muz do well lo. = ] i do well.. he'll do well too. haha. he promise one. rite gor? = p
aniwae.. tis few days alot of things happen. had been studyin alot fer me tests n exams. left 13 days now. kinda worried tat i wont do well. me bro call me go 3e1. coz their subjects is better. but triple science very difficult to study. worried tat i cant cope w/ it. hais. jiat gonna chose e1. wei hwan dey all e3. = [ hais. miss ong tis few days sick. never come fer two days. aniwae.. i cant possibl rmb all the things tat happen the past few days. juz rougly sae those i rmb lo. well.. thurs got art.. home econ. thurs was a angry dae fer me n jacyln. guess people will change. attitude, character. if people change. we muz try to adapt to their new character?! but it's not tat easy. hais.
reali so many things happen. y does it alwae hab to be the exam period. yesterdae hab guides. change to fri le. not sat anymore. was tired but it was fun. esp footdrills. but sad too. shld i write out? i dunno. wat if he saw? i still cant forget him. mebbie i forget le. but i feel so awkard when i saw him. wat does tis mean? i still cant get over him?! i reali sad. he's treat her so gd. reali reali gd. mebbie me n him not fated bah. = ( forget it. and one more guy came into my life. he said he like me. or mebbie tat's wat others sae. but i dun tink so at all. i dunno whether i like him. or hab a crush on him. i reali dunno. mebbie the feelin is not tat great compared to himmm.. hais. she n him... alot of people noe le. everybody wish dem luck. tis is heartwrecking. wat is tis mann!!!
love sucks..?! i dun understand. mebbie miss ong is rite. we r still too young to noe what is true love. it's juz some crush. hais. goin to hongkong tis dec. from 2 to 5. tink so. haiz. hope nothin clashes w/ it. aniwae.. me now tinkin of alot alot of things. so many problems. guess i hab to sort my thinkin out after exams. i wanna get out of tis sch. and start a new life. where nobody noe me. i feel so awkard w/ him arnd. hais. he like him alot. i can c tat. saw dem together. makes me wanna go home. wat the hell mann!!! i reali cant bear it. every guys is so flirt. even him oso! told janice not a single guy is gd. it's true. dey sae dey like tis gurl. after a while sae dun like le. like someone else. all tis guys is so FAKE N CHILDISH! i reali hate my life. so many people i noe has been attached. guess im fated to not hab any true love. = hahaha. = [ nobody reali cares abt me. im juz a shrewd..a gurl who no guys wan. where everyone juz hate me. juz wan me to go.
I reali hate tis life of MY!!!!
i reali love u. but y muz u treat me like tis.
tis life sux. nobody cares abt me. = [
