May 13, 2004
haix...sorri...hav been bloggin so much todae..juz finish readin his blog..i reread every entry of his blog..and i tink i reali miss those days when she didnt came in..i guess i reali miss bah..haix..y is she like that..alwae like that..from young till now..has it ever chamge??i was like smiling and smilin when readin his blog until i saw the blog that mention abt her..and when i continue readin..i actually cried..haix..i cried agaim coz of him..broke the promise i gave to kehwwng gor..i oso dun wan to cry one..the tear juz came out..haix..tis past few days..is exams..every mornin oso saw dem come sch together..and when he saw me..he juz ignored me..did not even smile at me..but when he not wif her..he got sae hi...wat the hell..y shld he b so scared of her..or izzit he scared jealous.....i oso dunno whether i still like him..hope no bah...hav been tellin myself i dun like him anymore n i like me ex..haix..when readin hos blog..me reali hate her..n him..fer her..is coz i dun understand y muz she alwae like that..i cant sae much..but i reali dunno y..even gera oso dun like her..haix..as fer him..i juz dont like the way he treated me..as spare tyre or sth??when u sad u juz come find me and ask me whether u make the wrong choice..when u happi.......u nv said that at all..wat is tis...me is juz ur spare tyre izzit??in the first place u alreadi left me fer her..u reali break me heart!!!i reali hate u..but i cant bring myself to hate..that's y i took the initiative to stop the cold war between me n u that time..yingxuan call me to b angry wif u..but......haix..can i ever have a guy hu truly likes me..who dun fool wif other gurlx..who wont take me as their spare tyre??who wont toy me!!tis is the first guy who ever toy me!!and i gonna hate him...i dun care...no matter wat..even now..he my gor..but so wat..im not goin to tok to u..u have her le..fer wat i still tok to u n everythin..haix...ahhhhhhhh!!!! im goin mad..reali mad..haix..ferget it..later he go complain to her girl..and her girl will hate me more..i reali dun understand y..i shld have trust nicholas in the first place..he told me...[i cant sae] y did i chose not to believe him??y did i insist it was not true??y did i trust that guy..y didnt i believe nicholas..i regret so much..but wat can i do...haix..guess i reali have to put all tis behind me..and stay happi.... haix...
